Married?
if i get married, then...

* i'm not free anymore..
* i can't flirt on others anymore..
* can't hang out with friends as frequent as before...
* i will have a lot of responsibilities...
* could our marriage be everlasting? will we get divorced?
* does he's the best for me??
* how if i get bored of him..?
* getting tied up for ur whole lifetime??
* and bla bla bla...

Marriage... is scary.. !!
R u scared? if someday u'll get tied up with someone..
U have to share each other... have to try to understand him... and a lot of other "have tos"...

To b honest, i'm scared...

in fact, marriage is complicated...
u cant just married by love...
mariage is not based on love only... there r a lot of things needed other than love itself.
wealthy... a good living... a good house... sounds materialistic?? exactly !!
imagine when u go shopping and u ask him for money n he said : "i have no money honey... but i have love.."
can u buy food with love?? or when ur husband came back from work n asked u what food did u cook today
and u answered "i cooked love" will it get ur stomach full?? eat that love !! heheh...

but yeah u need love too.. no doubt about it.
can we buy someone with money? how much? if it's possible, i want to buy Kwon Sang Woo.. lol
can u live happily if u live in a good luxurious house, eat glorious food, sleep in a comfortable bed,
but when u wake up u see someone u dont like beside u? and it happens for a lifetime... nope, i dont want it !!

but on the other hand, u dont need to worry about money... if u can work hard why not?? that's quite enough.
u can find money, but to be forced to like or love someone, can u accept that?? maybe u can, thru time...
but r u sure?? how long?? n in ur waiting for that feeling to grow what should u do? where do we have to throw our heart away? if i get married...

* i'm afraid i cant be the best for him.. can he be the best for me?
   it's ok though... nobody's perfect... WRONG !! everyone's perfect..
  what right do u have to call God's creation imperfect?? all humans r perfect
  the imperfectness was determined by our views..
  i love white skinned, tall, handsome boy who has a nice body, kind, caring and understanding...
  but if my man is dark skinned, has a so-so type face, a little fat and strict, does that mean he's not perfect??
  He's PERFECT... but we think he's imperfect since he's not our type... so what should we do??
  why dont we observe him further... what's his positive sides, he's smart? caring n loving?
  and what about the side that we dont like? he's dark skinned? why dont we try to like his dark skin..?
  he's not handsome? hey who will b handsome when they're getting old? NO ONE !! he's strict? good !
  that means he can scold me when i did wrong n he can lead me to stay on the right path. a little fat?
  so why?? he looks healthier and cuter that way ;))
  No one's imperfect... everyone's perfect. so before we decide what we demand from him,
  think, do i have meet his demand? u have?? sure?? who said that? u say that?? just go ask him :)

* afraid that i can stand of not getting bored of him. can he do the same?
  who said we wont get bored if everytime u wake up u see him, when u eat u see him,
  watch TV with him, maybe even take a bath with him (lol) and u see him when u're about to sleep too...
  why it has to b him again?? even u can get bored when u're still lover with him, but doesnt he bored of u?
  it;s just the same... bored is for sure. and u cant avoid that, maybe it's time to see how mature we are in
  facing the boredom, and how deep is our feelings to him...
  maybe it's fun and happy to see the one we love gets fatter, has wrinkles... gets older.. gets white hair...
  im sure he'll look better in my eyes... coz in the process we must have learned that we cant just see things
  from the outer side... but from the inside.. realize that he's the one who's there for me when i'm
  bored... sad... happy... and when i cry.. realize how he can accept me for what i am... and stay beside me
  for the rest of his life. is there someone who's better than him?? after all he's done for us?? if u say there is
  then u're cruel... heheh... know ur place !! when u get older u will have wrinkles too !! hehehe

* afraid that there will be someone who's better than him..
   do i have something better than anyone to him? everyone has their own positive sides.
   my man is handsome !! but my friend is more handsome !! so who's the most handsome??
   L-men of the year is handsome?? if he's handsome why they need to find another man every year??
   does that mean there's someone more handsome?? if u look for a better man, there will always be
   someone's better... even A LOT !! but how long do u intend to find a better man?
   when u choose someone to b ur partner, u know the consequences. we can see others r better than him..
   but can u see what makes u better than anyone around u?? everyone has their own uniqueness,
   that's why we cant look down on someone.. before we decided someone's better than our partner,
   think, r we the best person in this world?? i guess no....

* afraid of getting tied up to him for a lifetime..
   that we cant do whatever we wanted to do like back when we're still single...
   do u think u're the only one who think that way?? he's afraid of it too...
   he's afraid of getting tied up to u... but it's the consequence u got once u say " i do marry u..."
   that's responsibility...
   that's obligation...
   that's ur right....
   and it's valid for a lifetime... so u cant be an egoist person anymore...

* afraid that he cant understand me... can i always understand him???
   he cant completely understand us, thats for sure. there will be none who can 100% understands u.
   even ur parent who gave birth to u cant do that. maybe that's the art. trying to sync ur perceptions..
   opinions... likes.. and dislikes... it wil take a long time... if u dont want to wait for that long,
   just clone urself , they will understand u better, dont they?? if then, the consequence is only one :
   girls will become a lesbians n boys will become gays.. hehehe..
   we dont have to understand him for 100%.. just close to it is good coz he feels the same way as u..
 
* afraid that the marriage wouldnt last forever..
   well nothing lasts forever in this world.
   everlasting is never ! someday one of u will leave each other.. who's first and what's the cause,
   no one knows... but make it clear, u cant blame God when it happens. like all the artists said :
   "yeah... we divorced coz this is our fate.. he's not the one." heee? who decides he's not the one?
   u're the one who decide it !! have u put an effort on ur marriage?? everything's in God hands.. that's rite !
   but it depends on our effort too, doesnt it? if u dont try to find ur man, will he be there for u?
   if u dont protect ur marriage, will it last???
   in my opinion it depends on quality of ur relation. if u fight with him everytime u meet, that's suck...
   but if u're getting along everythime u meet him then that's good. we have to think how everytime he leaves,
   how we can smile whenever we remember him, not cry... everything will be gone... everyone will leave...
   it's how u deal and cope with it... 

im afraid of marriage...
im afraid i cant make him happy... so is he...
im afraid he's not the best... so is he...
im afraid of getting tied up... so is he...
im afraid to lose him.. so is he...

then why do u afraid? he's afraid too, so u have friend rite??
everything can be worked on...
everyone's perfect...
outer beauty fades away with time...
inner beauty grows as we age...
if we have the same feeling, assure urself that he can stay beside us as we stay beside him till the end...
there's nothing u have to be afraid of.... :)


P.S. thanks for the nice words geg.. ;)

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I called out your name for so many times,
but  all I heard was only my voice being echoed by the howling wind..

I reached out my hand to You,
but I touched nothing... only emptiness...

I ran to catch You, though i kept falling in the way,
but You were too far away, I couldn't even catch your shadow...

Where did You plan on going?
Why did You leave me?
Wouldn't You keep your promises to me?
That no matter what You will never let go of me?

I've waited for far too long...
Hoping that one day You will come back to me.
Guess I'm too naive.

By the time You come back,
I'd say " Where have You been? You're far too late now..."
Though I'm pretty sure it will only happen in my dream (that You truly come back to me..)


I wish You happiness... :)



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2days from now is my bday... but i dont feel happy rite now...
i just want to spend time with sum friends, is that wrong???
shit !! why did they always fuckin up my life !!!
accusing things to me without even asking for my explanation ! screw u !!

why dont u just let me live my life !!!
what do u know about what i feel???
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just cant put up with all this nonsense !!!!!!!

@#%%#%&&#*()&#@%#^

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If someone (in this case a girl) calls u  BITCH dont be angry,
be proud instead ;)
maybe u're wondering : why should we be proud if someone says such thing to us?

Well, there must b reasons why they call u like that...
Nobody would ever dare to addressed someone like that if they dont have any reasons.
I think the reasons why they call u a bitch could possibly be one of these :
1. They envy or jealous of u, or either way
2. They feel threatened by ur existence.

at this point maybe u think there MUST be another reason which is : they hate u.
but think about it for a moment... there's no such thing as HATE if they dont feel threatened by ur existence :p
so in the end there r only 2 options like what i mentioned above :)

They envy or jealous and feel threatened by u maybe it's because :
                                          1. U're more beautiful/ than them
2. U're definitely hotter ;p
3. What u've done made them feel like they're beaten by u

Do u know what BITCH stands for?? 
B-eautiful
I-ntelligent
T-allented
C-reative
H-uman being
:p :P :p :P :p LoL...



BUT if a man calls u bitch, dont b proud, instead give him a bitch slap on his face.. LoL

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aaahhh groar dahhh x(
ini mogilla gw yg kaco apa emg link music gw yg eror yahh kok BGM na ga kedengeran :(
huhuhuhuhuhu..... kesal....

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Well it's quite late to post sth at this time I think..
But while the matter is still fresh on my mind,
Why don't I give it a go :)

Today's topic is about love affair :D *clapping hands*
Catchy enough,huh? :p

As we all know, nowadays so many ppl tend to have an affair..
In this case I'm gonna talk about married men :)
I have seen a lot of men cheating on their wives
and living a free sex lifestyle.
Not only they have sex with some random women they met at club or such,
Sometimes they even involved their feelings toward that other woman,
They're dating as if they are a newly happy couple.

The woman they're dating knows that he already has a wife but
She doesn't care about it as long as she gets what she wants from the husband.
it could be money or affection that they seek from the married man.
I really don't get it why men r so stupid about this matter.
I mean they freely give their money to keep those women by their side..
U know there's a saying : behind every succesful man there is a woman.
But behind every failed man there r two ( I forget what the exact sentence so
I just change it with a word of the same meaning ).

So what I'm tryin to say is u maybe happy to have that woman by ur side,
But it's just a fake happiness.. They only want ur money..
Don't u forget ur wife who always stays by ur side even through the hardest times,
Who works with u from zero, who takes care of u when u're sick..
Does that woman u think u're in love with want to do those all for u?
Will she still want to b by ur side when u r not rich anymore,
Will she want to take care of u when u're sick??
Or what if ur wife has an affair?will u put up with it?
Think about how ur partner would feel if she knows ure cheating on her?
Positioned urself as her.. U sure don't wanna b cheated,do u?


And last but not least,
Think about it again, who stays by ur side thru the good n the bad times?
Treat ur wife well while u still have the chance coz when she's gone
It might be too late for u..

•••••••••• END ••••••••••
P.S. : sry for my bad english..
I just want to practice writing in english ت ت

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Just like anybody else, I have some dreams I want to accomplish..
Though it sounds silly but I really really wish I could achieve it :)
Here r some of my "silly" dreams :

1. Get slimmer-esp for my tummy ! Yay ! Every woman desires a slim body, coz boys
Have put an undirect standard toward this.. Fat is just not sexy (˘_˘")
Put some spirits on I'll do situps ! Hahaha >:)

2. To have an animal shelter. Sounds strange n seems impossible,isn't it?
I hate ppl who likes to torture animals esp domestic animal.. (•͡˘˛˘ •͡)
They have their own feelings too just like human.. In some cases,
Domesticated animals r better than human, they show their loyalty to us.
That's why I love animals ! :)

3. I want to make a lot of good photographs of myself since I'm not a
Photogenic type I think it will b quite difficult :|

And I still have lots of sill dreams but for now I think I'm just gonna tell u
These 3 as I don't wanna b laughed at :p

Time to hit the bed now.. Cya ;)

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Sometimes I feel so alone in my mind.
Like I'm a star that never got my chance to shine.
Never knew the feeling of love.
Just feeling alone as I sit alone.
In a house so quiet.
My emotions always having a riot.
Never know what I should feel.
I feel like nothing ever does work for me.
Many things go through my mind.
At times everything does seem fine.
No matter if I'm around people or not I always feel alone.
Will I ever feel the total opposite.
Is there a void in my life that I need to fill.
Perhaps there is something I really want to do with my life an I'm lacking in that skill.

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iseng2 tiba2 kepikiran anak2 jaman sekarang kekna dah ga sepolos dulu yah...
bbrp hari lalu gw denger ada anak kcil ngomong "gw-lo"
dulu waktu gw SD pasti "aku-kamu"
dulu maenan gw semacem petak umpet, bentengan, dkk
sekarang maenan mereka NDS,PS3,XBOX,Online games...
dulu henpon boro2 deh masi barang mahal,
sekarang anak SD pun udah make BB
dulu gw pasrah didandanin emak gw, dkasi baju apa jg dpake
anak jaman skg masih SD baju kayak anak SMA gaul abiss baju2nya



kebayang gag sih gimana jadinya anak2 kecil bbrp puluh taun ke depan...
mungkin mereka pun akan punya FB,Twitter or Blog mereka sendiri...
dan mereka udah lebi gaul dari jaman kita dulu wkt msh anak2...
mungkin di blog mereka kira" isinya kayak gni :

"duh hali ini gw diajak pelgi sama mami, gw udah nyisil lapih banget,
pelan2 gw buka pintu lumah gw n jalan kelual mau ke mobil,
gw bingung knp olang2 pada liatin gw yah... gw pikil gw kelen...

gag taunya gw balu sadal gw belon pake baju...
.... bla bla bla"

anak2 jaman skarang jd kayak gitu karna pengaruh teknologi dan lingkungan.
mereka bsa liat macem2 hal dari TV or internet.
tau sendiri banyak ortu yg kurang memperhatikan perkembangan anaknya
krn sibuk bisnis... memprihatinkan liat anak2 skg...
masih SD pun mungkin udah ngerti bokep kali ya... *omigosh*

*sigh* kids these days.... so spoiled... :)

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Whenever you’re gone
The Sun doesn’t shine as bright.
The rain doesn’t feel as fresh or wet,
The moon loses its luminosity.
I lose myself.

There’s an indescribable ache,
An unequivocal emptiness.
Oh I get by,
But just barely.

The world becomes hazy
And the code to happiness becomes elusive
And indecipherable.

Without you I’m locked
Inside a universe that doesn’t suit me.

You’re the only key
That opens me.

---------------------------------------------------------


I hate you
And yet I love you.

I hope you miss me so much you break,
And yet I hope you never break.

I hope you cry all night long with no respite,
And yet I don’t wish even one tear to stain your face.

I hope you’re cold as ice each night without me,
And yet I wish you warm blankets and dreams.

I hope your feet and back ache incessantly,
And yet I wish you freedom from all pain.

I hope you are so depressed you can’t function,
And yet I wish you total happiness and serenity.

I hope your heart aches in agony
And yet I wish you peace and joy.

I wish you were still mine,
And yet I’m thankful you’re not.

I hate you,
And yet I love you.

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you're the only one i want to hold me,
since you left I've just cried in my room.
Lonely without you when you are no more in my life,
I miss you so...

My heart dreams about the past, the days when you were with me.
Drops of tears were at the edge of my eyes when you said goodbye..
The days are not the same, my life is now still.

Everytime i saw you i would let out a sigh,
I'd see you coming n show a big smile.
I haven's smiled for a long while...

As i wait for you to return i just wanna die,
I know that you'll no longer be mine,
but still to you dear i wait...
Coz my love for you is true n i'm really mad about you.

I'm still your same old crazy girl who loved you always.
I know that you're not here with me,
but i pray that you're thinking of me...

Tell me why did you leave me.. ? :(

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Married?
if i get married, then...

* i'm not free anymore..
* i can't flirt on others anymore..
* can't hang out with friends as frequent as before...
* i will have a lot of responsibilities...
* could our marriage be everlasting? will we get divorced?
* does he's the best for me??
* how if i get bored of him..?
* getting tied up for ur whole lifetime??
* and bla bla bla...

Marriage... is scary.. !!
R u scared? if someday u'll get tied up with someone..
U have to share each other... have to try to understand him... and a lot of other "have tos"...

To b honest, i'm scared...

in fact, marriage is complicated...
u cant just married by love...
mariage is not based on love only... there r a lot of things needed other than love itself.
wealthy... a good living... a good house... sounds materialistic?? exactly !!
imagine when u go shopping and u ask him for money n he said : "i have no money honey... but i have love.."
can u buy food with love?? or when ur husband came back from work n asked u what food did u cook today
and u answered "i cooked love" will it get ur stomach full?? eat that love !! heheh...

but yeah u need love too.. no doubt about it.
can we buy someone with money? how much? if it's possible, i want to buy Kwon Sang Woo.. lol
can u live happily if u live in a good luxurious house, eat glorious food, sleep in a comfortable bed,
but when u wake up u see someone u dont like beside u? and it happens for a lifetime... nope, i dont want it !!

but on the other hand, u dont need to worry about money... if u can work hard why not?? that's quite enough.
u can find money, but to be forced to like or love someone, can u accept that?? maybe u can, thru time...
but r u sure?? how long?? n in ur waiting for that feeling to grow what should u do? where do we have to throw our heart away? if i get married...

* i'm afraid i cant be the best for him.. can he be the best for me?
   it's ok though... nobody's perfect... WRONG !! everyone's perfect..
  what right do u have to call God's creation imperfect?? all humans r perfect
  the imperfectness was determined by our views..
  i love white skinned, tall, handsome boy who has a nice body, kind, caring and understanding...
  but if my man is dark skinned, has a so-so type face, a little fat and strict, does that mean he's not perfect??
  He's PERFECT... but we think he's imperfect since he's not our type... so what should we do??
  why dont we observe him further... what's his positive sides, he's smart? caring n loving?
  and what about the side that we dont like? he's dark skinned? why dont we try to like his dark skin..?
  he's not handsome? hey who will b handsome when they're getting old? NO ONE !! he's strict? good !
  that means he can scold me when i did wrong n he can lead me to stay on the right path. a little fat?
  so why?? he looks healthier and cuter that way ;))
  No one's imperfect... everyone's perfect. so before we decide what we demand from him,
  think, do i have meet his demand? u have?? sure?? who said that? u say that?? just go ask him :)

* afraid that i can stand of not getting bored of him. can he do the same?
  who said we wont get bored if everytime u wake up u see him, when u eat u see him,
  watch TV with him, maybe even take a bath with him (lol) and u see him when u're about to sleep too...
  why it has to b him again?? even u can get bored when u're still lover with him, but doesnt he bored of u?
  it;s just the same... bored is for sure. and u cant avoid that, maybe it's time to see how mature we are in
  facing the boredom, and how deep is our feelings to him...
  maybe it's fun and happy to see the one we love gets fatter, has wrinkles... gets older.. gets white hair...
  im sure he'll look better in my eyes... coz in the process we must have learned that we cant just see things
  from the outer side... but from the inside.. realize that he's the one who's there for me when i'm
  bored... sad... happy... and when i cry.. realize how he can accept me for what i am... and stay beside me
  for the rest of his life. is there someone who's better than him?? after all he's done for us?? if u say there is
  then u're cruel... heheh... know ur place !! when u get older u will have wrinkles too !! hehehe

* afraid that there will be someone who's better than him..
   do i have something better than anyone to him? everyone has their own positive sides.
   my man is handsome !! but my friend is more handsome !! so who's the most handsome??
   L-men of the year is handsome?? if he's handsome why they need to find another man every year??
   does that mean there's someone more handsome?? if u look for a better man, there will always be
   someone's better... even A LOT !! but how long do u intend to find a better man?
   when u choose someone to b ur partner, u know the consequences. we can see others r better than him..
   but can u see what makes u better than anyone around u?? everyone has their own uniqueness,
   that's why we cant look down on someone.. before we decided someone's better than our partner,
   think, r we the best person in this world?? i guess no....

* afraid of getting tied up to him for a lifetime..
   that we cant do whatever we wanted to do like back when we're still single...
   do u think u're the only one who think that way?? he's afraid of it too...
   he's afraid of getting tied up to u... but it's the consequence u got once u say " i do marry u..."
   that's responsibility...
   that's obligation...
   that's ur right....
   and it's valid for a lifetime... so u cant be an egoist person anymore...

* afraid that he cant understand me... can i always understand him???
   he cant completely understand us, thats for sure. there will be none who can 100% understands u.
   even ur parent who gave birth to u cant do that. maybe that's the art. trying to sync ur perceptions..
   opinions... likes.. and dislikes... it wil take a long time... if u dont want to wait for that long,
   just clone urself , they will understand u better, dont they?? if then, the consequence is only one :
   girls will become a lesbians n boys will become gays.. hehehe..
   we dont have to understand him for 100%.. just close to it is good coz he feels the same way as u..
 
* afraid that the marriage wouldnt last forever..
   well nothing lasts forever in this world.
   everlasting is never ! someday one of u will leave each other.. who's first and what's the cause,
   no one knows... but make it clear, u cant blame God when it happens. like all the artists said :
   "yeah... we divorced coz this is our fate.. he's not the one." heee? who decides he's not the one?
   u're the one who decide it !! have u put an effort on ur marriage?? everything's in God hands.. that's rite !
   but it depends on our effort too, doesnt it? if u dont try to find ur man, will he be there for u?
   if u dont protect ur marriage, will it last???
   in my opinion it depends on quality of ur relation. if u fight with him everytime u meet, that's suck...
   but if u're getting along everythime u meet him then that's good. we have to think how everytime he leaves,
   how we can smile whenever we remember him, not cry... everything will be gone... everyone will leave...
   it's how u deal and cope with it... 

im afraid of marriage...
im afraid i cant make him happy... so is he...
im afraid he's not the best... so is he...
im afraid of getting tied up... so is he...
im afraid to lose him.. so is he...

then why do u afraid? he's afraid too, so u have friend rite??
everything can be worked on...
everyone's perfect...
outer beauty fades away with time...
inner beauty grows as we age...
if we have the same feeling, assure urself that he can stay beside us as we stay beside him till the end...
there's nothing u have to be afraid of.... :)


P.S. thanks for the nice words geg.. ;)

I called out your name for so many times,
but  all I heard was only my voice being echoed by the howling wind..

I reached out my hand to You,
but I touched nothing... only emptiness...

I ran to catch You, though i kept falling in the way,
but You were too far away, I couldn't even catch your shadow...

Where did You plan on going?
Why did You leave me?
Wouldn't You keep your promises to me?
That no matter what You will never let go of me?

I've waited for far too long...
Hoping that one day You will come back to me.
Guess I'm too naive.

By the time You come back,
I'd say " Where have You been? You're far too late now..."
Though I'm pretty sure it will only happen in my dream (that You truly come back to me..)


I wish You happiness... :)

2days from now is my bday... but i dont feel happy rite now...
i just want to spend time with sum friends, is that wrong???
shit !! why did they always fuckin up my life !!!
accusing things to me without even asking for my explanation ! screw u !!

why dont u just let me live my life !!!
what do u know about what i feel???
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just cant put up with all this nonsense !!!!!!!

@#%%#%&&#*()&#@%#^

If someone (in this case a girl) calls u  BITCH dont be angry,
be proud instead ;)
maybe u're wondering : why should we be proud if someone says such thing to us?

Well, there must b reasons why they call u like that...
Nobody would ever dare to addressed someone like that if they dont have any reasons.
I think the reasons why they call u a bitch could possibly be one of these :
1. They envy or jealous of u, or either way
2. They feel threatened by ur existence.

at this point maybe u think there MUST be another reason which is : they hate u.
but think about it for a moment... there's no such thing as HATE if they dont feel threatened by ur existence :p
so in the end there r only 2 options like what i mentioned above :)

They envy or jealous and feel threatened by u maybe it's because :
                                          1. U're more beautiful/ than them
2. U're definitely hotter ;p
3. What u've done made them feel like they're beaten by u

Do u know what BITCH stands for?? 
B-eautiful
I-ntelligent
T-allented
C-reative
H-uman being
:p :P :p :P :p LoL...



BUT if a man calls u bitch, dont b proud, instead give him a bitch slap on his face.. LoL

aaahhh groar dahhh x(
ini mogilla gw yg kaco apa emg link music gw yg eror yahh kok BGM na ga kedengeran :(
huhuhuhuhuhu..... kesal....

Well it's quite late to post sth at this time I think..
But while the matter is still fresh on my mind,
Why don't I give it a go :)

Today's topic is about love affair :D *clapping hands*
Catchy enough,huh? :p

As we all know, nowadays so many ppl tend to have an affair..
In this case I'm gonna talk about married men :)
I have seen a lot of men cheating on their wives
and living a free sex lifestyle.
Not only they have sex with some random women they met at club or such,
Sometimes they even involved their feelings toward that other woman,
They're dating as if they are a newly happy couple.

The woman they're dating knows that he already has a wife but
She doesn't care about it as long as she gets what she wants from the husband.
it could be money or affection that they seek from the married man.
I really don't get it why men r so stupid about this matter.
I mean they freely give their money to keep those women by their side..
U know there's a saying : behind every succesful man there is a woman.
But behind every failed man there r two ( I forget what the exact sentence so
I just change it with a word of the same meaning ).

So what I'm tryin to say is u maybe happy to have that woman by ur side,
But it's just a fake happiness.. They only want ur money..
Don't u forget ur wife who always stays by ur side even through the hardest times,
Who works with u from zero, who takes care of u when u're sick..
Does that woman u think u're in love with want to do those all for u?
Will she still want to b by ur side when u r not rich anymore,
Will she want to take care of u when u're sick??
Or what if ur wife has an affair?will u put up with it?
Think about how ur partner would feel if she knows ure cheating on her?
Positioned urself as her.. U sure don't wanna b cheated,do u?


And last but not least,
Think about it again, who stays by ur side thru the good n the bad times?
Treat ur wife well while u still have the chance coz when she's gone
It might be too late for u..

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P.S. : sry for my bad english..
I just want to practice writing in english ت ت

Just like anybody else, I have some dreams I want to accomplish..
Though it sounds silly but I really really wish I could achieve it :)
Here r some of my "silly" dreams :

1. Get slimmer-esp for my tummy ! Yay ! Every woman desires a slim body, coz boys
Have put an undirect standard toward this.. Fat is just not sexy (˘_˘")
Put some spirits on I'll do situps ! Hahaha >:)

2. To have an animal shelter. Sounds strange n seems impossible,isn't it?
I hate ppl who likes to torture animals esp domestic animal.. (•͡˘˛˘ •͡)
They have their own feelings too just like human.. In some cases,
Domesticated animals r better than human, they show their loyalty to us.
That's why I love animals ! :)

3. I want to make a lot of good photographs of myself since I'm not a
Photogenic type I think it will b quite difficult :|

And I still have lots of sill dreams but for now I think I'm just gonna tell u
These 3 as I don't wanna b laughed at :p

Time to hit the bed now.. Cya ;)

Sometimes I feel so alone in my mind.
Like I'm a star that never got my chance to shine.
Never knew the feeling of love.
Just feeling alone as I sit alone.
In a house so quiet.
My emotions always having a riot.
Never know what I should feel.
I feel like nothing ever does work for me.
Many things go through my mind.
At times everything does seem fine.
No matter if I'm around people or not I always feel alone.
Will I ever feel the total opposite.
Is there a void in my life that I need to fill.
Perhaps there is something I really want to do with my life an I'm lacking in that skill.

iseng2 tiba2 kepikiran anak2 jaman sekarang kekna dah ga sepolos dulu yah...
bbrp hari lalu gw denger ada anak kcil ngomong "gw-lo"
dulu waktu gw SD pasti "aku-kamu"
dulu maenan gw semacem petak umpet, bentengan, dkk
sekarang maenan mereka NDS,PS3,XBOX,Online games...
dulu henpon boro2 deh masi barang mahal,
sekarang anak SD pun udah make BB
dulu gw pasrah didandanin emak gw, dkasi baju apa jg dpake
anak jaman skg masih SD baju kayak anak SMA gaul abiss baju2nya



kebayang gag sih gimana jadinya anak2 kecil bbrp puluh taun ke depan...
mungkin mereka pun akan punya FB,Twitter or Blog mereka sendiri...
dan mereka udah lebi gaul dari jaman kita dulu wkt msh anak2...
mungkin di blog mereka kira" isinya kayak gni :

"duh hali ini gw diajak pelgi sama mami, gw udah nyisil lapih banget,
pelan2 gw buka pintu lumah gw n jalan kelual mau ke mobil,
gw bingung knp olang2 pada liatin gw yah... gw pikil gw kelen...

gag taunya gw balu sadal gw belon pake baju...
.... bla bla bla"

anak2 jaman skarang jd kayak gitu karna pengaruh teknologi dan lingkungan.
mereka bsa liat macem2 hal dari TV or internet.
tau sendiri banyak ortu yg kurang memperhatikan perkembangan anaknya
krn sibuk bisnis... memprihatinkan liat anak2 skg...
masih SD pun mungkin udah ngerti bokep kali ya... *omigosh*

*sigh* kids these days.... so spoiled... :)

Whenever you’re gone
The Sun doesn’t shine as bright.
The rain doesn’t feel as fresh or wet,
The moon loses its luminosity.
I lose myself.

There’s an indescribable ache,
An unequivocal emptiness.
Oh I get by,
But just barely.

The world becomes hazy
And the code to happiness becomes elusive
And indecipherable.

Without you I’m locked
Inside a universe that doesn’t suit me.

You’re the only key
That opens me.

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I hate you
And yet I love you.

I hope you miss me so much you break,
And yet I hope you never break.

I hope you cry all night long with no respite,
And yet I don’t wish even one tear to stain your face.

I hope you’re cold as ice each night without me,
And yet I wish you warm blankets and dreams.

I hope your feet and back ache incessantly,
And yet I wish you freedom from all pain.

I hope you are so depressed you can’t function,
And yet I wish you total happiness and serenity.

I hope your heart aches in agony
And yet I wish you peace and joy.

I wish you were still mine,
And yet I’m thankful you’re not.

I hate you,
And yet I love you.

you're the only one i want to hold me,
since you left I've just cried in my room.
Lonely without you when you are no more in my life,
I miss you so...

My heart dreams about the past, the days when you were with me.
Drops of tears were at the edge of my eyes when you said goodbye..
The days are not the same, my life is now still.

Everytime i saw you i would let out a sigh,
I'd see you coming n show a big smile.
I haven's smiled for a long while...

As i wait for you to return i just wanna die,
I know that you'll no longer be mine,
but still to you dear i wait...
Coz my love for you is true n i'm really mad about you.

I'm still your same old crazy girl who loved you always.
I know that you're not here with me,
but i pray that you're thinking of me...

Tell me why did you leave me.. ? :(